2012 is a terrible year so far. I can barely count the days I did not frown at all. I feel like giving up on everything that I am doing now. BUT, I know I can't. my shoulders got better and I continued dancing which simply made it worse. Have almost no time to practise my piano so, only waiting to get scolded during piano lesson. Had zero time to stretch at home. All I want is just a bit of break and a bit of rest. i don't understand why some people just don't understand what it means by teamwork. Although I know no one is going to come just to read this, I really want to just say everything out. Life is terrible, I feel like dying. I don't understand why no matter how hard I try to finish everything, there is just more coming ahead. Perhaps I need some help, or just a shoulder to lean on to. Will you be the one, who will come by me everyday just to cheer me up? I may appear to be a cheerful and happy person, strong and not easily defeated. But sorry, I just have to say I'm not. I hide the feelings deep now in me, suffocating and I can't breathe now. I am just so tired. I need a person to care for me and only me. Why can a day full of happiness end up with tears. I simply do not get it. I wish to give up all my time just for resting, when I sleep I simply thought I was in heaven. Wake up, and I see hell. I hate to hear harsh comments just like everyone else. But i choose to present it like I don't care or I know it. NO I DON'T!!!!!!!!!! I hate the awful things in life. everything that happened so far. A primary student telling me she can't come for practice beacuase she needs to go to school tmr? PLEASE!!!!!!!!! We secondary school students wake up far earlier than you do and we end school far later than you. If YOU choose to act and go for so much lessons, please know how much you urself can do. NOT everyone is able to maintain a balance. I don't care how you feel or what you think. I just think it is not right to behave this way. There is no way that you will be more tired than ME and there is no way PSLE will drive you crazy because it won't. I know it becuase I experienced it. IT IS NO BIG DEAL. What's the point of studying the whole day just for that. you say you have to study tmr, so what, not like you will study at home right!!!!!!!!!!!?
I am sorry for venting my anger on you my blog. Because there is no one else who is willing to listen to all my complaints and stuff. Sorry to the readers, it is rude but that is exactly how I feel and I hope you guys do not feel this way.
LIVE LIFE HAPPILY BECAUSE IT IS MEANINGLESS IF YOU CARRY ON EVERYDAY IN TEARS.
